somewhere i have never traveled

I am so grateful for Zeek to be here when I need him the most. The last few weeks of the constant messages from my ex partner just took a hold on me and caused me nothing but grief and pain and anxiety.

Please Stop!!!

I really wanted it to end in a nice and calm way, but he just wouldn't stop and was trying to disrupt my happiness.

somewhere i have never traveled,gladly beyond

any experience,your eyes have their silence:

in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,

or which i cannot tough because they are too near

though i have closed myself as fingers,

your slightest look easily will unclose me

(touching skillfully,mysteriously)her first rose

you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens

or if your wish be to close me,i and

the snow carefully everywhere descending;

my life will shut very beautifully,suddenly,

as when the heart of this flower imagines

compels me with the colour of its countries,

nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals

the power of your intense fragility:whose texture

the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)

rendering death and forever with each breathing

(i do not know what it is about you that closes

and opens;only something in me understands

nobody,not even the rain,has such small hands

E.E. Cummings

I wonder as I wander SL

Sometimes I wonder who sits behind that avatar. Are they like me? What kind of life do they live and why are they here in Second Life?

I try to give everybody the respect they deserve, because after all there is a real person behind all of it. Not all are creeps, at least I don't think so. It would be sad to think that the entire platform just harbors weirdos. I have seen the creative art and was amazed from the first day I logged on and how beautiful it is. I have seen and felt how you can all of a sudden spend hours here in Second Life and forget what time it is. Time stands still in a way. 

I have felt the love and admiration of a person who seemed so perfect in many ways and then after an eternity just ends it all. The pain is real, but I promise you get over it. Just like in real life your heart mends and moves on.

If you want to survive Second Life you have to absolutely make it fun and enjoyable. For example, I was doing a little photo shoot and this guy named Mr. Fox just sat right in the middle of the scene. Rather than getting pissed off at him, I just incorporated him into my picture.

Not sure why he sat around and watched...lol.

Mr. Fox even had a wife and she at one point popped on with her BIG tummy and then disappeared again. Too funny, because I did not want to be caught in any drama here.

Who are these people...the ones who dress up as a child or animal? 
One great feature in Second Life is that you can block people and delete them from your list of friends. I had to do this quite often when people get a bit weird and want to talk about stuff I am really not into. Like last night some guy wanted that I call him Sir, because he felt he enjoys this very much. That is fine, but I call people Sir only if they have that title or perhaps are in the military. POOF and you can teleport yourself away.

D R E A M S !

I'll take the dream I had last night,
And put it in my freezer,
So someday long and far away,
When I'm an old grey greezer,
I'll take it out and thaw it out,
This lovely dream I've frozen,
And boil it up and sit me down
And dip my old cold toes in.

~Shel Silverstein, 

"Frozen Dream," A Light in the Attic