|He made me feel stupid and I started to believe it.|
Does that sound familiar? I know it does because that is a narcissist telling you that you are wrong, it is you and it all exists in your mind.
|There were times when I wanted him to get burned.|
The narcissist can be a co-worker or even your boss too but this kind of devalue you and gaslighting is a form of psychological/emotional abuse where the abuser manipulates situations repeatedly to trick the victim into doubting this/her own memory, perception and sanity. I know this from my own experiences and much of the abuse led to PTSD as a result of many other events that may have occurred in your life. It all adds up.
|I felt utterly alone and ashamed of what was happening to me.|
If you are being abused, be careful how you approach this. Abusers can be dangerous and will manipulate you to believe you are at fault. Keep a journal, write it all down exactly hos it happens. This can give you a big picture later and helps with the heeling that you are NOT crazy and you DID NOT cause any of this. Plan a safe exit!!!
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